My immunity increased!

After 1502 and 2003, I found out that the last stage is today! 2403! Not going to beg for more.. Not going to continue hoping.. Not going to continue dreaming nor thinking!

I found the reason why you’re in pressure.. How I pressurised you.. And what is pressuring you.. So, there’s no more things to me to explore in you anymore.. I found the way out of this sickness! Maybe you’re right! It’s me that wants this relationship, but why you need to respond and act that you care and continue in this fake imaginary relationship of mine? Why would you still intend to ask me to come over? And denied that you don’t have a girlfriend? I just don’t understand this.. I really don’t understand..

In physics, a wave with amplitude a, meets another wave in with amplitude a, makes a wave with an amplitude of 2a.. And it is known as constructive wave.. And that is how you construct form one lie, to another.. And made this destruction to my heart? My heart is crushed into pieces today and I picked it up pieces by pieces without a tear shed! It is silly that I can still blog it out! But, this is an awareness I suppose.. An awareness to whoever reads this post..

How would you feel if you’re girlfriend owns another boyfriend out there and did what you have done to me? Do you think it is fair? How would you feel if your girlfriend is kissing and hugging another guy behind of your back? It is fair to the guy if he don’t know that she have you as her boyfriend? Do you think this doesn’t matters? Well, ask yourself..

I put all the blame on myself because I who granted for this relationship.. I who agreed to stay with you and I made my decision clear.. As I told you, it’s my life and I decide.. But, don’t you have a little sorry for me who do not know what’s happening? Why kiss me if you don’t like me? Why hug me if you’re thinking bout her? Why hold me tight when you have her in your mind? I’m not her double!

I let you go on 2003 as I care for you, I don’t want to pressure you, I don’t want to make you suffer in it and I don’t want you to loose your freedom! That’s why I messaged you on the next morning! And you came back to me on 2103 telling me I’ve caused you to be in a condition.. I admit I enjoyed the journey.. I’m addicted to the touch of yours.. But, let it be ended here today.. I really want to know why you can come back to me and ask for more as you already have a girlfriend and denied you don’t have one..

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Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne!