I wish you knew ♥

So long =’)

Thanks for the

- smile
- tips
- lessons
- advice
- and being there although it is just 5 months.. =D

I appreciate YOU!

I’ve learnt what’s the true meaning of DETERMINATION and I’ll continue my journey to reach the wildest dream of my life!

THANK YOU =D

All the best to you!

Sat.Rolled.Laughed-Badminton craze!

Let's see..
I slept at 2.30 AM today,
Woke up at 6.30 AM,
Started off with Chemistry,
Have a piece of bread..
And off to Damansara! =)

Reached bout 10.30 AM,
Have some nasi lemak..
yummy, RM 1.20 ea,
worth as it is spicy enough, and it's delicious!
Have a sip of white coffee..
And off for badminton @ 11.30 AM..

I would say there are improvements today,
Compared to last week,
I have more strength..
The feel of hearing each and every strokes is 爽啊!
Played a couple or two games..
Went on doubles with Uncle Ho..
Trust me, we rolled, laughed with tears out,
I got myself on the wall..
Stopped at 2.50 PM! ah~~ 很轻松哦

WHAT a DAY.. ♥


Cut short my hair jor..
Shorter only, not that bob hair style ..xDD
Feel so energetic and fresh now..
Just had dinner as I slept from 6.30 PM - 9.00 PM!

Gotto +oil for BIO tonight! =D
Enjoy your weekend!

* perfect eyelids = tired *
BUT I felt REfreshing! =D

- IGNORE the pimples -

这些年，没什么变，有事才记得朋友的存在。习惯了，也没什么可以该。但是，有的一天天在一起度过， 也是一种福气！朋友们，谢谢你！ ♥

Felt great being noticed! =)

X-press ME!
There are times that you felt it is very hard to breathe..
Is it because you are lost? or is it because you are too aware?
Well, things doesn't go your way all the time, and I'm very sure..
Most of us have the experience of being disappointed over some unexpected events in life
But, hey.. Life goes on!


It doesn't matter how hard is it for you to get back what you used to have..
It depends on you, as you decide.. You control, and always remember that..
BUT, don't get too carried away of having the ability to control..
Coz, you'll really get lost and I mean it


Sometimes, things are meant to be done and go through with stages..
From one to another, you'll face doubts..
And that's the challenge that one have to face and overcome..
That's the factor to all change in decisions..
As what I've said, it's really up to you! =)


2-day =)
Today, I really get things cleared as I know what I'm facing
To face reality, it might not be the same most of the time.
So, the best is be certain of things and as well as yourself..
It is important, INDEED important! x)


Have chit -chat sessions with friends today..
only 9 of us attended school, and it's quite a fun day and I'll remember it..
we talk about 'never' , 'had/have' , and from house to school and event bedtime! =P
Cool topics and of course, all had their very own to share and I enjoyed it much!


Guess what?
Another - FIRST TIME - ... LOL
As we go through the topics..
I bursts my first *F* word in full!! Gosh, guess that I really mean it! xD
I only noticed that seconds away..
Hmm.. HAHAHA
The first thing I did was... Closed my mouth with my hands.. =.=''
LOL! - The great thing is,
HAHA, and mike noticed it.. lol
he gave me a pat on my shoulder as I looked at him with full of innocents!

谢谢你, 我♥你!

Sy 的老妈 ~ 我妈妈叫我读书先~上大学自然有美女送上门来 == 太看得起我了老妈 ==

我的老妈说，最好不要惹麻烦，读好书先，未来如果真的有缘分，他是属于你的

 

其实，这两个长辈都说的没错！
为何要把一生那么真亏的时刻，
白白的浪费
特别是现在这样的月份呢？

 

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

妈妈，谢谢你一直以来都那么照顾我
爱我和一直在乎我的一切！
妈妈，我♥你！！

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

妈妈，我终于明白你想告诉我的一切！

男友，缘分。。
这些能慢慢的去找
但是，时间不会等你的
SPM 只有一次（除非你要重考？）
学业也是自己的，
不是为了妈妈，弟弟，家人。。
而是为了一个更好地未来！

所以，我一定不会让你失望
但是我决定要好好的抱住机会
要去追求个难忘的时刻
挑战些有甜又苦的经验
要更多了解去和珍惜友情的存在
见多点不同性格的人
慢慢的学习生活的意义

我也希望朋友们
能够帮我，提醒我，支持我
互相帮忙
一起向前一步步的走到最后!

Random tags!

hello world! ;) I found some tags on fb but I only posted one.. XD.. the rest all I post here.. It’s quite a repetition ans that’s why I dint post on FB! =X

Let's have some fun! ;)
Tag M - Person you marry Amanda Christine Kok
Tag L - Best man Low Yen Wei
Tag H - Maid of Honor Loh Jun Han
Tag C - Wedding Crasher Billy Hue Champion
Tag E - Eats all your wedding cake Tharrshy Eshrra Babygal
Tag D - Gets absolutely hammered and dances with everyone Douglas Wong
Tag T - Tortured the bride and groom Tuan Farah Syazleena
Tag S - Person who steals the ring Isaac Lim

If i die, during a funeral.
Tag C - The one that will CRY the most - Billy Hue Champion
Tag L - The one that will LAUGH all day - Loh Jun Han
Tag D - The one that will DIE with me - ---- ( this person will kill me 1st before that! ) Douglas
Tag F - The one that will be FOOLING around - Tuan Farah Syazleena
Tag M - The most MAD person - Amanda Christine Kok
Tag K - The one that KILL me- Calvin You

My Love (tag letter L) : Loh Jun Han
My Crush (tag letter C) : Billy Hue Champion
Someone Special (tag letter S) :Isaac Lim
My Destiny (tag letter D) :Douglas Wong
My Real Friend (tag letter R) :Ronnie Wong
My Best Friend (tag letter F) :Tuan Farah Syazleena
An Awesome Friend (tag letter A) :Amanda Christine Kok
Someone Kind (tag letter K ) :Calvin You

LOL!!! Stress gone!!! But the *sot* sickness increased lerh! XD
My stomach wanna burst d.. !

LMFAO

new life!

Hey.. My Life I decide!
There is a very long way for me to go and I don’t want it to end here..
I love FREEDOM as I have the power of Choice to choose..
When there’s a mistake.. It might just be me but not you doing the mistake..
So, please don’t blame yourself kay?

To me.. I prefer my old life.. Things just doesn’t work at some stages and of course my mom wouldn’t agree.. So, why waste time..? Life must move on.. And I’ve moved and took my steps.. Why wouldn’t you? Have you ever heard that ‘ if you loved someone, let them go’ ? I’m telling you now if you have not..

To life with many things FORCED to do, will just lead you to tones of stress and unhappy day.. Well, you guys must be thinking that I can really fake my smile.. But, I can promise that I do not need to do so.. Coz I’m now who I really am.. There isn’t any need to do so..

Hey.. being FORCED= SUFFERENCE! I don’t want that.. It’s out of my life concept! Not only me.. even my friend can c that very clear.. And I’m just tired of being in this anymore…

OFFICIALLY SINGLE, UNAVAILABLE and EASY TO MINGLE!

I lead my life, I decide, NOT others!

Easy, Busy, Buggy!

 

我每天都在唱歌，
从房间跳舞到厨房
然后客厅回到我房间
日子一天一天得过

这几天都不舒服
头痛，很累，一直想休息
但功课就一天比一天多
怎么办阿？

Trials 很快就到了
我还在这里发梦
我刚发现到
一直以来都没有改变过

一天一天的等待
终于等到了有能怎样？
都不能回头
好辛苦哦

虽然我终于等到了
但必须把它放一边
梦想必须继续努力的去追
自己心中有数啦

 

20/08/2011

- 2nd Piano Performance..
The digital piano was kinda different of what I had always thought.. Though it is so.. Manage to play the notes in order but there are a pause or two due to nervousness! XP Teacher said that me ending was good! =D Another achievement! This Saturday last class for this year, stop temporarily for SPM!

- SP Setia Foundation Charity Dinner 2011

好开心能参加这个活动
这是我每年都等待的其中一个活动

今年呢， 机会来了
我和Penny Tai戴佩妮握手了！
拍她的照片，但来不及合照
还有 Best in S’pore, JB and some say Batam…
PCK –Phua Chu Kang – Gurmit Singh!
这是第二次了 =)

在我面前的她 ♥ Penny Tai戴佩妮

 

19/08/2011

- 5 UM dikir barat

GREAT CO-OPERATION! Kudos 5 UM!

♥上它

我以前很怕狗的！
可是，今年不知为什么突然勇敢的多,
敢去摸，动，还有抱啊！－自己都没想到～

看中了 candice 的 COFFEE.. =D
后来上个星期又看中了教练的 DODDLE! =D
我很想证明给我妈妈和弟弟我终于不怕狗啦！
一定要找个机会...

 

 

 

me + COFFEE ( 28/05/2011)

 

 

 

 

I’m not the decision maker..
I’m just a normal human being that likes to observe and have my own point of views..
I need not voice out, I need not express, I need not put effort to make people notice me..
In fact, my name is always voiced between and within conversations..
If it gets worst, a conversation turns into a major controversy and I’m in HUGE nightmares..

Observing all these years, and I found that, the problem laid in me is a side effect of my own history..
History that are not black and white, but coloured.. With tertiary colours..
Not too dark in tone, but not too bright as well..
This made and taught me to be matured in a very short stint..

I hated it at times being too matured in my circles of friends..
Always thought of consequences, benefits and procedures..
Giving NOs as answers when people granted for a YES?
Thinking from too many different aspects that I left out the main reason to a problem?

I’m tired to the critics thrown on me..
Tired of the sweetest words heard by myself..
Tired of friends acting good, although they don’t..
Tired of being a Miss Perfect chaser..
Tired of being the topic of the society..
Tired to be concerning, and being concerned?

Life is not a bed of roses..
Sometimes, we need to work hard for what we want..
Fortune doesn’t fall from the sky after the magic word split out from your mouth..
If it does.. There isn’t any me in this world..
Talent doesn’t approach you since you’re born..
You approach them through interest and experience and continue to further it with own will..
There’s no born to be leaders..
All leaders are trained, they might inherit traits from their parents, but if they are not exposed to what’s reality, they wouldn’t know what will happen and what that happened..

History in fact plays an important role in life..
".. for those who forgets the history, repeats the history..”
Why suffer in life where you have alternative ways to lead a better life?

My GOAL in life is to have a peaceful life..
I don’t need fame and name..
I just need a serene mind, a healthy body, and a bright sight to find inner peace?

Readers… I’m sorry if this post made you feel offended..
I can’t stand living like this anymore..
Most of the times..
I cared about what people talk and things about me..
But, to care at this matter..
I’m hurting myself indirectly..

So, if you really care, PLEASE guide me..
Do not hint me..
Tell me straight..
I wouldn’t know what I’m doing at times..
We are all actors in this ‘stage’..
I can evaluate your acting skills, but can’t evaluate my own..
So, why don’t we evaluate each other for the better in life?
And bring us one step forward to the ‘Best Actor’ in the Oscar Awards? =D

Just a piece of note that I want to express and being noticed in this hectic, pressured and under-stress situation.. Good Luck for PMR & SPM trials and enjoy your revisions to all PMR and SPM 2011 candidates! –=D

HUGS and KISSES?

XDD – Nites..

Reunion on FB.. ♥

  

YUP.. 3 sisters.. and Today is 04/06/2011!

 

Happy B’day Dexter Ho!

And this is what I posted on FB!

Jacquelyne Anne Boudeville >>

Selamat menyambut Hari Keputeraan yang ke- 26, puteraku Ho Leong! ♥ adinda Jacquelyne & Brian.. Dan Bonda Cik Julie.. ( since mak= bonda) ! Hahax *early wishes, as I dunno the Dubai-KL time difference* XDD..

This is me.. Myzz Jacquelyne Anne aka J-anne! Signing off!

无形的东西可能是真的..另一方面，有形的东西也可能不是真的。

520 ♥ 不要怀疑我对你的爱。

Something true that I agree!

Brandon Goh Jen Fei

Reasons to have a guy best friend:
Guys don't start rumors for no apparent reason
They won't tell anyone your secrets
They don't pms and randomly act super rude
They don't try to steal the guy you like
They aren't two faced
They stick up for you no matter what
They'll give you their sweatshirt when your cold
They'll carry you when you get hurt
And they might even fall in love with you

⚝ 0507 - 2011

Slept at 12.30 yesterday night and woke up at 9.15 AM! =P

Today went out with mom to Aunt Jenny’s place and then ‘ stuck ‘ at Atria Damansara again! She go shopping, I waited and in hunger.. =.= I could have used the time to study! And I’m there… Waiting, doing nothing.. Not exactly nothing.. Answered a few questions like.. ‘ what size whould I take? ‘  OR MAYBE ‘ what colour? ‘.. Haiz…

Then, bout 3.15 PM reached home! *finally*.. I took a nap up to 3.55 PM, jumped up for piano lesson.. Feeling new with the surroundings as I meet my new teacher today! And it’s a lil scary to me! Her name is Elizabeth and I like her! She sort of understand why and what am I looking for in the room!

Feling happy because I finally found a teacher that understands me and she knew it by just asking (2) questions oh!

1 # Are you taking Theory Exam?

2 # Have you sit for any exam before?

* most probably I answered the 1 # question with ‘ not so soon ‘ , and the 2 # with  ‘ no ‘.. =D 

She taught me with her opinions and literally told me what and where I should improve.. My former teacher only tells me what based on the book!

And I change book already! So fast? And I never expect it too! 

* cursive handwriting is my type of writing! *

* beginner here, =P *

Ant the most important thing is.. She knows that I’m learning it not to pursue my examination and get a cert in Piano! It’s learning how to play and enjoy playing the Piano! So, I’m glad that she recommended me to start practicing Chords in a correct way.. So starting from today! I’m practicing the so call ‘ 4 Chords Progressions ‘ consisting C, Am, F and G Major Chords! =P

Got to study! -  Need to change mode! Give me an hour or two then I'll activate my study mode..!~ Day dreaming mode pause in 2 hours from now! >.< … – Yeap, after this blog post.. Got to study! Time is running out! Mid term must score, trying hard to achieve staight A this time.. ( A, A-, A+)

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I can do a million of things that you think I can't be able to do so... Just wait, see and experience it by yourself when time comes...

Trust me! I can give and fill up the emptiness in you and I’m ready to take the consequences! I don’t care whether it’s time consuming or not! I’m willing to give my everything to you!  You’re not alone!

我愿意给你我所有和需要的一切!

♥♥♥ 0504 - 2011

♥            School Photography session day 1.. Quite messy but the day did ran smoothly.. =D

♥♥            I want to apologize to all whom I had raised my voice to today! I don’t mean it.. It’s just an expression that can’t be hidden and sorry, exploded but in a minimun rate! =P Sorry yea..

♥♥♥          Yup, like years before.. Voice gone! It had been 4 years straight I’m in charged for the Photography Session and this is the final year.. Tomorrow hope it doesn’t rain and everything will be fine!

♥♥♥♥        Today, I volunteered to drink a bottle of Chicken Essence! Something that I wounldn’t do and I did it! It taste like Marmite soup! =D No probem, just two gulps and the bottle is empty! And of course, Cadbury Dark Chocolate from Austrailia by my Boss..

 

* yummy *

 

♥♥♥♥♥        Studied and revised Chemistry Form 4! Gosh,.. I still have many more to go and the exam is next week! *rush-rush-rush *

    

* revision checklist *

 

♥♥♥♥♥♥     From the beginning I found out that what you need is actually what I need.. I’m willing to give as much as possible, and I do care! I want to surrender my feelings! I’m willing to give everything you want! I mean it.. No matter how obvious it is.. As I said, you won’t know what I’ve done and you won’t notice it too! Let it be a simple secret that I cherish and enjoy sacrificing to share my time with you!

 

♥♥♥  只有我了解这幸福感觉, 美得值得去付出一切!    ♥♥♥

Nites! =D

One shot!

Today 第二届华文学会激励营《续·缘梦》2011..

6 – to – 6 + 1 and I’m quite tired.. But still HIGH in a way..

When I’m tired, sleepy or getting not well.. My eyelid will fold both sides, making me owning a pair of complete folded eyelids..

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

More and stories will be updated soon.. Got to go now.. Nites!

I wanna work my plans!

Planned, Practiced, Prayed! What’s next?

Works are piling up.. Homework is gradually increasing day by day.. Task is getting nearer to their deadlines and I’m still static at some points! Arh!! One after another.. Need to solve one by one like a Mathematical Question!

*Slow and steady Jac! You can do it!*

Feeling easy as I just got into a new dreamland.. XDD My dream study room is here! Thanks a lot Uncle Ho! He fixed a light and a foldable wall attached table for me yesterday!

Due to the things that are running fine and smooth around me.. I found that I can do things that I can’t before this! And with a lil day dreaming as usual, just a light one.. My day is just perfect! I feel so gooood! ♥

But, stress are still coming in and out off my life as they wished and I don’t feel easy of it! I need remedies! Subscription anyone? Or I just GET HIGH on my part and *tada* it’s me again!

Hahaha.. I smile with my heart and soul.. Not emo’ng anymore because I think I should not pull my moods down that way! x) So, if you caught me when I’m not myself as before.. Do smile and walk away.. I scared I would give you the shock of your life! XDD.. When I’m HIGH.. I really mean it!

 

别人说 ： 爱情是一个非常难解释的题目。。                                                            
我说        ： 不！ 爱情比世界上所有的请是最简单去了解的事。。                       
为设么呢？ 应为你真名了爱情是最完美的。。

 

虽然等待是苦味.. 它变成甜，当我看到你脸上的笑容♥

我愿意!

Will cut down on FB.. Cut down on Blogging..

Cut down FB is because.. I feel so wrong and my emo will come back after reading posts and etc. It just drag me down again and again whenever I see a post regarding or refering to my problem..

Cutting down my BIO( Blog-It-Out) activity is because I think I can handle life as it would be filled with busy schedules and activities starting from now.. Study, extra activities, Piano.. =D and most important.. REST! including sleep! =D..

So, got to do revision, in fact started to day! =D And My phone is arriving soon.. ;D

+选择爱自己

+不想去想爱

+不想惹麻烦

+不想再想他

+只是想集中

+现在更努力

+美好的未来, 将是我的!

Myzz Jacquelyne Anne, aka J-anne

I Dare You on 19th April! =D

Premise 1 : I'm lifeless without entertainment.
Premise 2 : You're my entertainment.
Conclusion : I'm lifeless without you! ♥

Found the usage of Mathematical Reasoning! =D It can be used to self express in a different way! LOL.. Yea.. That’s what I did last night rushing a card for someone I appreciate much and I don’t want to loose in my life!

Despite having a small space to write.. I only wrote the Premise 1.. Hope he sees it! XDD.. *but sorry, I lied because I don’t want to mess things up again*

I hate small left over hints as in a sign of there’s hope.. I really hoped that I had a chance.. But, not now.. You’ve made my decision which is to Let it GO!

WALAO eh… Today I ran 7 rounds.. Did 7 exercises… Done 3 sets of steps of 10 times per set.. and 3 sets of sit ups also 10 times each sets! WoW … Tmr will know the result! So long no do stamina training d lor… Will feel the effort made tomorrow! XDD

Gosh! Foundation or STPM? Matriculation, MOE? Or don’t study at all?! I won’t choose the last choice even it’s the last resort! I want to continue my studies.. But please don’t make me loose confidence once I’ve made my choice..

 

在这个世界上只有穷女人, 没有丑女人! – Do you remember this quote?! I watched 一切完美2! Was quite blur at first because I thought the previous drama has not reached to the end yet! =DD

Sacrifices so far it’s still a worth! Was clueless and curious why you came and claimed for the card? If I were you.. I won’t have the heart to even care because I don’t like that person anymore.. * Dream on Jac! =D

Must sleep early.. Busy busy weeks piling up starting tomorrow!

*staystrong.lovelife.seek4entertainment* and I’ll be fine! =D

Happy Birthday Jun Han! =D

Myzz Jacquelyne Anne, aka J-anne ♥ you! XDD Nites!

If I let you go..

1. If I let you go, I don’t own you anymore.. This means I can’t be pointing each and everything thing I want you to do..

2. If I let you go, I can’t get anything from you, as long as you wouldn’t concern anymore..

3. If I let you go, I feel so empty here.. And I won’t mind continue waiting because I believe there’s still a chance..

4. I let you go is not because I don’t love you anymore.. It’s because I care.. It’s because I wouldn’t want you to suffer.. I don’t want you to get pressured in a way..

5. I let you go is because I want to pause this whole moment, sit and make a self post-mortem on myself.. To detect problems and my negative values, make them positive.. I shall improve myself to be a better person, if we were to be together again in future..

My Trust, Communication, Responsibility, Love, Laughter, Smiles, and Heart will always be true forever! So, let me own the chance if there is one in future.. I promise to treasure it as how I treasured your trust.. ♥

Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne

* 我珍惜 * ♥你!

我找到出路了! 虽然没有什么发生, 我非常感谢您的时间和支持! ♥ * 我珍惜 *

I'm always expecting for something because I'm serious in this matter.. But nth happen.. Most probably my hopes are too high.. Not going to waste your time.. Thnks alot! I enjoyed my time..

眼泪，你在哪里？

Can't cry.. I really wished to cry..

The end of my first love.. You had taught me many stuffs and all are kept in my memory forever~! Not washing it off!

I want you to know....

Tell you sth..

every morning, when I wake up..

The 1st thing pop into my head is.. " are you awake?"

when I step into my mom's car and on the way to school... Q2 " are you going to school?"

when I'm passing through your house junction,

I peep through the wiondow.. Q3 " are the lights off? "

when I reach school.. the 1st thing after I settle down.. Q3 " where are you? "

saw you! then the next thing is.. Q3 " why are you doing there?"

then, very perasanly.. Q4 "are you looking at me? "

then class... each and every person passing through the class door..

I'm waiting to see you pass by.. If i see you.. Q5 "look here? "

then recess.. I know you're in the class... so, I don't go and sampat there... I stay in ko-op.. =)

until school finish.. I pack as quick as possible and hopping to step out of the class, searching high and low.. and when I found you.. Q6 " who are you walking with? "

then I go home.. rest + eat + bath... the next thing to do is Q7 " where are you now? "

and continue with Q8 "what are you doing?"....

Then my life continue until dinner... after dinner.. Q9 " makan d? " ...

then lastly... Q10 " are you gonna sms/msg/msn/FB inbox me? "...

before I go to bed... I feel so scared that I'll loose you as your images fades out my mind and I close my eyes...

I have to say that...

I dunno why I'm attracted..

I can't understand why is this happening..

I dunno what to do...

BUT

I love the way you smile..

I feel safe when you're around..

I love the environment when you're in it!

DON'T

leave me hanging here..

thing that I don't care..

assume that I won't mind..

make me filled myself with doubts again..

I'm LOST.CLUELESS.SAD again.. Most probably I think too much... Pls respond!

Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne..