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我以前很怕狗的！
可是，今年不知为什么突然勇敢的多,
敢去摸，动，还有抱啊！－自己都没想到～

看中了 candice 的 COFFEE.. =D
后来上个星期又看中了教练的 DODDLE! =D
我很想证明给我妈妈和弟弟我终于不怕狗啦！
一定要找个机会...

 

 

 

me + COFFEE ( 28/05/2011)

 

 

 

 

I’m not the decision maker..
I’m just a normal human being that likes to observe and have my own point of views..
I need not voice out, I need not express, I need not put effort to make people notice me..
In fact, my name is always voiced between and within conversations..
If it gets worst, a conversation turns into a major controversy and I’m in HUGE nightmares..

Observing all these years, and I found that, the problem laid in me is a side effect of my own history..
History that are not black and white, but coloured.. With tertiary colours..
Not too dark in tone, but not too bright as well..
This made and taught me to be matured in a very short stint..

I hated it at times being too matured in my circles of friends..
Always thought of consequences, benefits and procedures..
Giving NOs as answers when people granted for a YES?
Thinking from too many different aspects that I left out the main reason to a problem?

I’m tired to the critics thrown on me..
Tired of the sweetest words heard by myself..
Tired of friends acting good, although they don’t..
Tired of being a Miss Perfect chaser..
Tired of being the topic of the society..
Tired to be concerning, and being concerned?

Life is not a bed of roses..
Sometimes, we need to work hard for what we want..
Fortune doesn’t fall from the sky after the magic word split out from your mouth..
If it does.. There isn’t any me in this world..
Talent doesn’t approach you since you’re born..
You approach them through interest and experience and continue to further it with own will..
There’s no born to be leaders..
All leaders are trained, they might inherit traits from their parents, but if they are not exposed to what’s reality, they wouldn’t know what will happen and what that happened..

History in fact plays an important role in life..
".. for those who forgets the history, repeats the history..”
Why suffer in life where you have alternative ways to lead a better life?

My GOAL in life is to have a peaceful life..
I don’t need fame and name..
I just need a serene mind, a healthy body, and a bright sight to find inner peace?

Readers… I’m sorry if this post made you feel offended..
I can’t stand living like this anymore..
Most of the times..
I cared about what people talk and things about me..
But, to care at this matter..
I’m hurting myself indirectly..

So, if you really care, PLEASE guide me..
Do not hint me..
Tell me straight..
I wouldn’t know what I’m doing at times..
We are all actors in this ‘stage’..
I can evaluate your acting skills, but can’t evaluate my own..
So, why don’t we evaluate each other for the better in life?
And bring us one step forward to the ‘Best Actor’ in the Oscar Awards? =D

Just a piece of note that I want to express and being noticed in this hectic, pressured and under-stress situation.. Good Luck for PMR & SPM trials and enjoy your revisions to all PMR and SPM 2011 candidates! –=D

HUGS and KISSES?

XDD – Nites..