Today 第二届华文学会激励营《续·缘梦》2011..
6 – to – 6 + 1 and I’m quite tired.. But still HIGH in a way..
When I’m tired, sleepy or getting not well.. My eyelid will fold both sides, making me owning a pair of complete folded eyelids..
More and stories will be updated soon.. Got to go now.. Nites!
Yesterday.. My bag was left in school due to miscommunications between me and my bro.. Today.. I went to school with an extra bag to be brought back and I wore slippers.. =.=
Conclusion, I can’t hand in my Folio Moral and thank god.. teacher changed the deadline! Next Tuesday! =P.. Lucky us..
Today.. TIRED! But I think it will pay off tomorrow! Yes! ITS TOMORROW! Wooho!~ Today.. I took this picture.. haha..
And we took the BIG family Picture! =D
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Okay lar.. I also dunno what to say d.. But.. I love my day today! I guess the tags of my blog posts with the label *first times* will increase day by day as my first times is taken away as times flies! No regrets!
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Feel so comfortable with you around..
I got my first personal phone today! =D Nokia C5-03.. I wanted Nokia 5800 but.. nvm lar.. Since she wanted to buy me one.. anything will be fine.. Asalkan she dun choose for me then can d.. XP
Sadly.. I can upload photo.. Long time no use blue tooth d… so now abit noob… PC to phone can.. but phone to pc canT! >.<.. @.@ hai.z…
Looks like I h ave no chance to upload my very 1st picture.. My 1st call was from Khar Yan! =D Coincidence happens.. and yea… my phone.. I love it too much dunno how to express jor!
Yeaaap! My 1st picture as soon I on my phone! hehe.. Ignore the pimples pls… It’s increasing in numbers each days.. and I dunno why.. XD..
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I’ve been sleeping for the whole night yesterday from 7.30 till today 6.00 AM.. Too much of rest caused headache and I’m abit shaky this morning! * Lesson learnt don’t sleep too long!*
It’s busy busy week.. and I though everything will finish this weekend! Just remembered that Photography Session is next week! Haiz.. Though can retire and rest jor!~ But looks like.. Have to work for another week!
Count down officially 2 more days (tmr) and it’s Saturday! So fast! I want to be super active on that day! I really mean it! SUPERB acTIVE! Long time not in that active mood d.. SO must get it on! =D
Today, it’s Syik’s and Nava’s B’day! Poor Syik.. If and only if he agreed to get his hair cut then most probably he don’t get his backache now! XDD Toolateoh! hehehe..
Genting?! Nice one.. Plans are plans.. To work the plan.. The planner and participants have to work for themselves! It’s a rule! =D Hope it works then! Because I’ve got my green lights! But quite boring for me to appear there twice as in 5 days in a week? Haha.. *swts*
Mission accomplished?! 49% yes.. 51% NO! Comes back to the same one.. Not accomplished at all.. And it’s end of April d.. Few more days to go.. Grab chances and do not loose hope! Not to get yourself into problems.. To prove yourself that you can do it! And yes.. no matter what happen.. You’re yourself and I’m me of course! Nothing changes except history and memory increased in our lifes?
Think and digest my words well.. I don’t want to mix things around.. I just want to make things clear.. and.. I'm not your toy! I'm worth more than what you think! Don't take advantage please! That’s all from me today! ♥
在这一个世界上， 没有任何事是一切万完美的！ 要好好珍惜时间。。
Planned, Practiced, Prayed! What’s next?
Works are piling up.. Homework is gradually increasing day by day.. Task is getting nearer to their deadlines and I’m still static at some points! Arh!! One after another.. Need to solve one by one like a Mathematical Question!
*Slow and steady Jac! You can do it!*
Feeling easy as I just got into a new dreamland.. XDD My dream study room is here! Thanks a lot Uncle Ho! He fixed a light and a foldable wall attached table for me yesterday!
Due to the things that are running fine and smooth around me.. I found that I can do things that I can’t before this! And with a lil day dreaming as usual, just a light one.. My day is just perfect! I feel so gooood! ♥
But, stress are still coming in and out off my life as they wished and I don’t feel easy of it! I need remedies! Subscription anyone? Or I just GET HIGH on my part and *tada* it’s me again!
Hahaha.. I smile with my heart and soul.. Not emo’ng anymore because I think I should not pull my moods down that way! x) So, if you caught me when I’m not myself as before.. Do smile and walk away.. I scared I would give you the shock of your life! XDD.. When I’m HIGH.. I really mean it!
别人说 ： 爱情是一个非常难解释的题目。。
我说 ： 不！ 爱情比世界上所有的请是最简单去了解的事。。
为设么呢？ 应为你真名了爱情是最完美的。。
虽然等待是苦味.. 它变成甜，当我看到你脸上的笑容♥
Today no go school.. =D No one went to school except for Zi Jie.. So, I went marketing with mummy! From School-EON Bank – Tesco – Pusat Bdr Puchong – Bdr Puteri – IOI – Merak – School – IOI – HOME! *Finally*
Then, to Piano Class… So sad to hear that my Piano teacher, Ms. Marina is not teaching anymore and Saturday (30/04) will be my last class with her.. So, I decided to go for class at 6 PM on Friday (29/04).. T.T .. No mood to play piano d after hearing this sad news from her..
跳过* ( 1st time using this technique.. XD)
After dinner.. Go buy lightings.. Tomorrow uncle will be coming to fix a light and my study table in my room! ♥ hehe… That’s reason no.2 why I can’t attend meeting tmr! T.T Will miss the fun.. *cries* The main reason is because I don’t have a transport there.. Haiz..
After the nags, argues, still can’t win.. really sorry.. I really wanted to go for the meeting! Hope she understand!
Myzz Jacquelyne Anne, aka J-anne! Nites!
微笑吻过你的脸 绚烂星光围绕着全世界
我发现你微笑的眼好纯真的画面
轻轻的哼着音乐
快乐代替我陪着你到永远
捧在手心的温暖要完整的带在身边
我只想把你好好看清楚
沉默不再遗憾坎坷抹了涂
如果你在左右幸福对了路
唯一的你是全部伤过的痛已模糊
让未来的地图完成我们的幸福
爱就是完美的礼物
是你给我的礼物
sempurna sempurna
用所有爱庆祝
不变的是你值得我为你哭
勇敢的珍惜会纪念像最虔诚的最初
Wéixiào wěn guò nǐ de liǎn xuànlàn xīngguāng wéirào zhe quán shìjiè
wǒ fāxiàn nǐ wéixiào de yǎn hǎo chúnzhēn de huàmiàn
qīng qīng de hēng zhe yīnyuè
kuàilè dàitì wǒ péi zhe nǐ dào yǒngyuǎn
pěng zài shǒuxīn de wēnnuǎn yào wánzhěng de dài zài shēnbiān
wǒ zhǐ xiǎng bǎ nǐ hǎohǎo kàn qīngchu
chénmò bù zài yíhàn kǎnkě mǒ le tu
rúguǒ nǐ zài zuǒyòu xìngfú duì le lù
wéi yī de nǐ shì quánbù shāng guò de tòng yǐ móhú
ràng wèilái dì dìtú wánchéng wǒmen de xìngfú
ài jiùshì wánměi de lǐwù
shì nǐ gěi wǒ de lǐwù
sempurna sempurna
yòng suǒyǒu ài qìngzhù
bù biàn de shì nǐ zhídé wǒ wèi nǐ kū
yǒnggǎn de zhēnxī huì jìniàn xiàng zuì qiánchéng de zuìchū
为什么你总是闷闷不乐
你知不知道你是最好的
这首歌我唱这首歌就是要给你快乐
世界上只有你独一无二
我为你填上幸福的颜色
这首歌我唱这首歌你要专心的听着
说你也一样爱着我
有一个温暖角落那是我心窝
把你的爱收起来放进我的口袋
不让你轻易离开
我会永远爱着你
到老还是同一句因为我珍惜
轻轻地摇着懒椅戴着老花眼镜
还记得我们这首歌
说你也一样的爱着我
这首歌
说你一样爱着我
说你也一样爱着我
有一个温暖角落那是我心窝
把你的爱收起来放进我的口袋
不让你轻易离开
我会永远爱着你
到老还是同一句因为我珍惜
轻轻地摇着懒椅戴着老花眼镜
还记得我们这首歌
Wèishéme nǐ zǒng shì mènmènbùlè
nǐ zhī bù zhīdào nǐ shì zuì hǎo de
zhè shǒu gē wǒ chàng zhè shǒu gē jiùshì yào gěi nǐ kuàilè
shìjiè shàng zhǐyǒu nǐ dúyīwúèr
wǒ wèi nǐ tián shàng xìngfú de yánsè
zhè shǒu gē wǒ chàng zhè shǒu gē nǐ yào zhuānxīn de tīng zhe
shuō nǐ yě yīyàng ài zhe wǒ
yǒu yīgè wēnnuǎn jiǎoluò nà shì wǒ xīnwō
bǎ nǐ de ài shōu qǐlái fàng jìn wǒ de kǒudài
bù ràng nǐ qīngyì líkāi
wǒ huì yǒngyuǎn ài zhe nǐ
dào lǎo huán shì tóng yījù yīnwèi wǒ zhēnxī
qīng qīng de yáo zhe lǎn yǐ dài zhe lǎohuāyǎn jìng
hái jìde wǒmen zhè shǒu gē
shuō nǐ yě yīyàng de ài zhe wǒ
zhè shǒu gē
shuō nǐ yīyàng ài zhe wǒ
shuō nǐ yě yī yàng ài zhe wǒ
yǒu yīgè wēnnuǎn jiǎoluò nà shì wǒ xīnwō
bǎ nǐ de ài shōu qǐlái fàng jìn wǒ de kǒudài
bù ràng nǐ qīngyì líkāi
wǒ huì yǒngyuǎn ài zhe nǐ
dào lǎo huán shì tóng yījù yīnwèi wǒ zhēnxī
qīng qīng de yáo zhe lǎn yǐ dài zhe lǎohuāyǎn jìng
hái jìde wǒmen zhè shǒu gē
不会再后退也不能再挽回
我们之前的一切让我的心残废
要多少智慧才能够无所谓
倒不如给幸福多一次机会
我不想难过你选择了沉默
我们笑把感伤轻轻带过
如果能够重新来过我们有没有把握
只是放开这样的你并不容易
为何这一切已注定不争气
这对你着迷的心留下难看的字迹
相信我会痊愈
原来这场战役我输得最彻底
胜利的你却不屑的走下去
留下无法磨灭的回忆
爱你胜过自己
Bù huì zài hòutuì yě bùnéng zài wǎnhuí
wǒmen zhīqián de yīqiè ràng wǒ de xīn cánfèi
yào duōshǎo zhìhuì cái nénggòu wúsuǒwèi
dào bùrú gěi xìngfú duō yīcì jīhuì
wǒ bùxiǎng nánguò nǐ xuǎnzé le chénmò
wǒmen xiào bǎ gǎnshāng qīng qīng dài guò
rúguǒ nénggòu chóngxīn lái guò wǒmen yǒu méiyǒu bǎwò
zhǐshì fàng kāi zhèyàng de nǐ bìng bù róngyì
wèihé zhè yīqiè yǐ zhùdìng bù zhēngqì
zhè duì nǐ zháomí de xīn liú xià nánkàn de zìjì
xiāngxìn wǒ huì quányù
yuánlái zhè chǎng zhànyì wǒ shū de zuì chèdǐ
shènglì de nǐ què bùxiè de zǒu xiàqù
liú xià wúfǎ mómiè de huíyì
ài nǐ shèng guò zìjǐ
Room clean jor.. =D! Gonna fix a light and a foldable table! Then I can syok sendiri and enjoy my own world d in my room! Include study, music time and even FB as soon as my reach my phone! wakakakaz…
Study mode on! Time is ticking! Must really appreciate time!
TODAY is 22 APRIL 2011.. It’s Earth Day! And… Today is also Good Friday! Not to forget it’s April Cheong’s , Cheryl Lim’s and Ronnie Wong’s Birthday! Happy B’day guys! Hape you guys have a blast and Good Luck!
Will cut down on FB.. Cut down on Blogging..
Cut down FB is because.. I feel so wrong and my emo will come back after reading posts and etc. It just drag me down again and again whenever I see a post regarding or refering to my problem..
Cutting down my BIO( Blog-It-Out) activity is because I think I can handle life as it would be filled with busy schedules and activities starting from now.. Study, extra activities, Piano.. =D and most important.. REST! including sleep! =D..
So, got to do revision, in fact started to day! =D And My phone is arriving soon.. ;D
+选择爱自己
+不想去想爱
+不想惹麻烦
+不想再想他
+只是想集中
+现在更努力
+美好的未来, 将是我的!
Myzz Jacquelyne Anne, aka J-anne
It was creepy to know that you have to go to hospital to do a check up! Stepping into Room 13, Prof. Dr. Yip Cheng Har.. Felt happy because she’s a professional so there is no need to have double or triple checks..
I got checked and she say everything is fine.. I hung a huge smile on my face.. She ask if I would like to remove it, as it is quite big although it’s not harmful nor cancerous.. She suggested it to be removed so I would pass my medical checkups later in future..
So, I decided to remove it! I though a syringe would just help ad how it helped my mom.. BUT.. It takes a minor surgery to remove it! * WTH * My level of nervousness shot up as high as KLCC!~ >.<.. WALAO! Surgery lerh… *scared*
Prof. Yip ask if I want the surgery to be done on tomorrow.. Task are flying out of my head one by one… Camp Meetings, Exams… And IF I were to undergo the surgery, a week MC will be given.. So, I said no.. I prefer it to be done end of May after the Mid-term! And yes.. The arrangement was made..
And that’s my Wednesday! (20th April 2011)
This was quite a question that I always ask and self answered..
B4 that.. I coppied this from my friends status.. Coz I’m having the interest in expanding my view so I decided to BIO! (BLog-It-Out!)
I would say it would be nice..I want cuddles, I wan kisses.. XDD I don’t mind share many things with you and you wouldn’t know even it’s so obvious! =DD That’s what I’ve got to say!
Pray hard please..
Got to SLEEP ! Nites ( 2nd time )
Myzz Jacquelyne, aka J-anne…
Found the usage of Mathematical Reasoning! =D It can be used to self express in a different way! LOL.. Yea.. That’s what I did last night rushing a card for someone I appreciate much and I don’t want to loose in my life!
Despite having a small space to write.. I only wrote the Premise 1.. Hope he sees it! XDD.. *but sorry, I lied because I don’t want to mess things up again*
I hate small left over hints as in a sign of there’s hope.. I really hoped that I had a chance.. But, not now.. You’ve made my decision which is to Let it GO!
WALAO eh… Today I ran 7 rounds.. Did 7 exercises… Done 3 sets of steps of 10 times per set.. and 3 sets of sit ups also 10 times each sets! WoW … Tmr will know the result! So long no do stamina training d lor… Will feel the effort made tomorrow! XDD
Gosh! Foundation or STPM? Matriculation, MOE? Or don’t study at all?! I won’t choose the last choice even it’s the last resort! I want to continue my studies.. But please don’t make me loose confidence once I’ve made my choice..
在这个世界上只有穷女人, 没有丑女人! – Do you remember this quote?! I watched 一切完美2! Was quite blur at first because I thought the previous drama has not reached to the end yet! =DD
Sacrifices so far it’s still a worth! Was clueless and curious why you came and claimed for the card? If I were you.. I won’t have the heart to even care because I don’t like that person anymore.. * Dream on Jac! =D
Must sleep early.. Busy busy weeks piling up starting tomorrow!
*staystrong.lovelife.seek4entertainment* and I’ll be fine! =D
Happy Birthday Jun Han! =D
Myzz Jacquelyne Anne, aka J-anne ♥ you! XDD Nites!
Woah! Mix feelings are pulling me down and getting me LOW! I’m like a cell phone with indication of ‘Low Battery’ now.. With the blinks and empty bars.. I’m tired of all these but I can’t let it go!
I can’t cry, because there’s isn’t any reason for me to do so.. I’m self killing at times.. And I wished that I would just freeze all the events and erase the history like how I used to do in cleaning my IE’s history once upon a time..
So, here is it.. Goal No. 1 # Get HIM wiped off as soon as APRIL washed away! So, enjoy the time.. Smile, and get HIGH *with limits*.. Because I would say, “all my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking WTH.. All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about!” Enjoy the days left in APRIL!
2nd on the chart is.. What if… *fingers crossed* the report is a negative one..? I’m not sure what’s going to happen on Wednesday and hope everything is fine.. Despite knowing ways to comfort a friend, I should practice what I preach too! Appreciate everything when it’s PRESENT! Use HISTORY as guidelines and I will lead a good FUTURE full of MYSTERIES! =D
Goal No. 2 # Calm down.. Pray hard.. Everything will be fine!
3rd is facing reality! I’m moving out from Dreamland guys! Not going to day dream anymore.. Not going to hope that the dream last forever.. It should be kept and filed into the HISTORY folder and stored there safe and sound! =D
GOsH! It’s 11 PM jor!~ 放弃是最好的方式! 步步向前走.. 不必回头.. 自爱!
Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne! Nites
Hope I’ll be fine.. My health is okay.. So, I think it’s just hormone changes.. Wouldn’t affect anything and it’s not contagious.. Going for hospital check-up on Wednesday to know more bout it! *hope everyhting is fine*
Had fun at Yee Jen’s house, play games and being 1st to be drawn =D,.. swts.. haha.. I got a nice ‘ eyebrow’ drawn by coach! =DD Haha.. will upload photo as soon as Yee Jen and Alin upload it!
Ate until so full! Wanna burst d.. But can’t! haix..
TODAY.. I’ve made my mind.. After telling how I felt.. I feel better than before.. But I really want that relationship to continue, as close friends.. I want you to talk to me.. Because I’m entertained and stress-free during the conversation.. I don’t hope for more.. Because no one knows what’s gonna happen tomorrow, right?
So, dear most trustable friend of mine.. Please consider.. I’m okay but I need someone to talk.. Not going to refer to long time stories and history! But you get me HIGH every time I see you.. haha.. I’m too into you I guess.. But, you should really consider.. For me please..
Oh yea, pray hard for me too! Hope everything is fine.. People say b’day wishes really come true.. So, one favour? Pray for me? XD..
I’m seriously LOST.SAD.DESPERATE to know my health conditions.. *sobs*
I want to cry but I can’t ( it’s not about the relationship now ).. I’m worried but I can tell Alin that I’ll be fine.. So, hope the check-up results will be fine too!
Time to sleep.. Not to grab more of your attention, but I need support now.. Good Luck guys for tuition exam! ;D Hope you guys EXCEL!
Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne.. Nites!
他的輕狂留在 某一節車廂
Ta De Qing Kuang Liu Zai Mou Yi Jie Che Xiang
地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重
Di Xia Tie Li De Feng Bi Hui Yi Hai Zhong
整座城市一直等著我
Zheng Zuo Cheng Shi Yi Zhi Deng Zhe Wo
有一段感情還在漂泊
You Yi Duan Gan Qing Hai Zai Piao Bo
對他唯一遺憾 是分手那天
Dui Ta Wei Yi Yi Han Shi Feng Shou Na Tian
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
Wo Ben Teng De Yan Lei Dou Ting Bu Xia Lai
若那一刻重來 我不哭
Ruo Na Yi Ke Zhong Lai Wo Bu Ku
讓他知道我可以很好
Rang Ta Zhi Dao Wo Ke Yi Hen Hao
*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
Wo Ai Ta Hong Hong Lie Lie Zui Feng Kuang
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
Wo De Meng Hen Hen Sui Guo Que Bu Hui Wang
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
Ceng Wei Ta Xiang Xing Ming Tian Jiu Shi Wei Lai
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來
Qing Jie You Duo Huai Dou Bu Ken Xing Lai
我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
Wo Ai Ta Die Die Zhuang Zhuang Dao Jue Wang
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
Wo De Xin Shen Shen Shang Guo Que Bu Hui Wang
我和他 不再屬于這個地方
Wo He Ta Bu Zai Shu Yu Zhe Ge Di Fang
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*
Zui Chu De Tian Tang Zui Zhong De Huan Tang
如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
Ru Guo Hai You Yi Han You Zhe Me Yang Ne
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
Shang Le Tong Le Dong Le Jiu Neng Hao Le Ma
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
Ceng Jing Yi Kao Bi Ci De Jian Bang
如今各自在人海流浪
Ru Jin Ge Zi Zai Ren Hai Liu Lang
我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
Wo Ai Ta Hong Hong Lie Lie Zui Feng Kuang
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
Wo De Meng Heng Heng Sui Guo Que Bu Hui Wang
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
Tao Bu Kai Ai Yue Shen Yue Hu Xian Shang Hai
越深的依賴 越多的空白
Yue Shen De Yi Lai Yue Duo De Kong Bai
該怎麼去愛
Gai Zhe Me Qu Ai
*我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
Wo Ai Ta Hong Hong Lie Lie Zui Feng Kuang
我的夢 狠狠碎過卻不會忘
Wo De Meng Hen Hen Sui Guo Que Bu Hui Wang
曾為他 相信明天就是未來
Ceng Wei Ta Xiang Xing Ming Tian Jiu Shi Wei Lai
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來
Qing Jie You Duo Huai Dou Bu Ken Xing Lai
我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
Wo Ai Ta Die Die Zhuang Zhuang Dao Jue Wang
我的心 深深傷過卻不會忘
Wo De Xin Shen Shen Shang Guo Que Bu Hui Wang
我和他 不再屬于這個地方
Wo He Ta Bu Zai Shu Yu Zhe Ge Di Fang
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐*
Zui Chu De Tian Tang Zui Zhong De Huan Tang
如果還有遺憾 是分手那天
Ru Guo Hai You Yi Han Shi Feng Shou Na Tian
我奔騰的眼淚 都停不下來
Wo Ben Teng De Yan Lei Dou Ting Bu Xia Lai
若那一刻重來 我不哭
Ruo Na Yi Ke Zhong Lai Wo Bu Ku
讓他知道我可以很好
Rang Ta Zhi Dao Wo Ke Yi Hen Hao
房间是你的气息你还没醒
静静的偷挨着你你伸手握我手心
这是真的还是种梦境
没捧在手心还是不确定
爱来来去去走走停停无论多小心
说过不放感情直到我遇见你
这不是运气是种默契却让我恐惧
oh 你会不会美丽往往都易碎对不对
遗憾变满意满意变泪滴
泪滴变钻石我珍惜被你珍惜
爱是水晶好透明又怕被跌碎的心
偷偷珍惜屏住呼吸
爱来来去去走走停停无论多小心
说过不放感情直到我遇见你
这不是运气是种默契却让我恐惧
oh 你会不会热情往往会减退对不对
爱来来去去走走停停无论多小心
说过不放感情不在患得患失
这不是运气是种笃定更怕会失去
oh 你会不会真心最后会撤退会不会
Fángjiān shì nǐ de qìxí nǐ hái méi xǐng
jìng jìng de tōu āi zhe nǐ nǐ shēnshǒu wò wǒ shǒuxīn
zhè shì zhēn de háishì zhǒng mèngjìng
méi pěng zài shǒuxīn háishì bù quèdìng
ài lái lái qù qù zǒu zǒu tíng tíng wúlùn duō xiǎoxīn
shuō guò bu fàng gǎnqíng zhídào wǒ yùjiàn nǐ
zhè bùshì yùnqì shì zhǒng mòqì què ràng wǒ kǒngjù
oh nǐ huì bù huì měilì wǎngwǎng dōu yì suì duì bùduì
yíhàn biàn mǎnyì mǎnyì biàn lèi dī lèi
dī biàn zuànshí wǒ zhēnxī bèi nǐ zhēnxī
ài shì shuǐjīng hǎo tòumíng yòu pà bèi diē suì de xīn
tōutōu zhēnxī píng zhù hūxī
ài lái lái qù qù zǒu zǒu tíng tíng wúlùn duō xiǎoxīn
shuō guò bu fàng gǎnqíng zhídào wǒ yùjiàn nǐ
zhè bùshì yùnqì shì zhǒng mòqì què ràng wǒ kǒngjù
oh nǐ huì bù huì rèqíng wǎngwǎng huì jiǎntuì duì bùduì
ài lái lái qù qù zǒu zǒu tíng tíng wúlùn duō xiǎoxīn
shuō guò bu fàng gǎnqíng bùzài huàndéhuànshī
zhè bùshì yùnqì shì zhǒng dǔdìng gēng pà huì shīqù
oh nǐ huì bù huì zhēnxīn zuìhòu huì chètuì huì bù huì
Thursday, 14th April 2011..
Went to school, *nervous* PIDATO COMPETITION DAY!
Freaking out each breathe of air I took in.. And the day just passed through like that, hehe.. I went for the competition just to gain experience.. =D So, I know you knew the results, right? XD
Then, teacher drove us from SMK Seksyen 11, Shah Alam to Taylor’s.. I got to be the GPS live again for the day! =D When we reached there… I can’t take my eyes over the Lake! Owwh!~ Why Late? If not I can go jalan-jalan de.. Sorry, Alin!
After that, MAKAN TIME! =D My favourite time since I’m in this condition right now.. =DD.. Free food of RM5 coupon for food, and RM 2 for beverages.. I ate Chicken Rice and took Bandung.. RM 4.80 + RM 2.. ngam ngam ho! XD
Then we hopped onto the bus, cruising Jalan PJS 9 and Lagoon Timur straight to Taylor’s Subang Campus, SS15! ;DD.. Got Goodie bag.. ( pen, booklet, survey form, and A taylor’s booklet! ) Then count 1,2,1,2 and form 2 groups.. We went for South Austraillia Matriculation Mathematics class 1st before to the Chemistry Lab!
Got to feel the Graphic Calulator( GC).. It’s worth up to RM 600 + per unit! Crazy! Alin almost felt asleep as the day was cloudy and the room was cooling!~ haha.. then we moved to the Chemistry Lab! We did Chromatography! Nice!
Tot can balik rumah de… How I know we go to two campus at the same time.. No chance to drop by my hse.. =( So, I went down the bus at Helang, took a bus to my mom’s off! And then, go HOME!
I didn’t do a thing that night! Just SMS and thinking bout it till I eventually fell asleep!
That’s all bout 14th April 2011.. Oh yea,, Cindy and Choe Yeing’s B’day! =D
Friday, 15th April 2011
Went to school, still having old habbits seeking for you.. Found you looking at times,, XDD.. Dream on! Made couples of announcements! Shouted till I think the whole school can hear me..! (preparation for prefectory board election – 18/04/11)
Then HA Rehearsal! Not prepared, but main hentam! She still can smile, means it’s okay lor! =DD , didn’t enter class at all! Then, continue to prepare for presentation until 1.30 PM.. then mom come and fetch to Syik’s house…
Guess what?! He tengah mandi when I reach! =.= We almost got roasted outside just to wait for him! LOL! I enjoyed my day! seriously, although It was really tiring much!
♥黄美莲.. That’s my name lar.. It’s given by my mom! I’m proud of it! So, I dun care.. That’s my name.. When kopi announced my name.. I guess everyone was clueless unit I said ‘我’ as a prove that I’m there..!~ LOL!
That’s my FRidAY!
Saturday, 16th APril 2011
HA – The presentation was a success! =D
Piano Class – My hands very stiff and my wrist hurts!
And not to forget
…. “Why every Saturday, when I come back form school/netball training/marketing with my mom/etc... I have to somehow recite the "F" word.. All the way from my mom's car park, to the guard house, and give the guard a very stern face and raise my voice.. ( so furious ) DAMN the person who parked my mom's parking lot! Hence, my mood on Saturday afternoons,.., HANCUR! T^T”…
Last but not least! Life must go on dear.. Doesn’t matter how high the Hardship level is… Handle it with cheers and smiles…
Better day a head!
Myzz Jacquelyne Ooi, aka J-anne
1. If I let you go, I don’t own you anymore.. This means I can’t be pointing each and everything thing I want you to do..
2. If I let you go, I can’t get anything from you, as long as you wouldn’t concern anymore..
3. If I let you go, I feel so empty here.. And I won’t mind continue waiting because I believe there’s still a chance..
4. I let you go is not because I don’t love you anymore.. It’s because I care.. It’s because I wouldn’t want you to suffer.. I don’t want you to get pressured in a way..
5. I let you go is because I want to pause this whole moment, sit and make a self post-mortem on myself.. To detect problems and my negative values, make them positive.. I shall improve myself to be a better person, if we were to be together again in future..
My Trust, Communication, Responsibility, Love, Laughter, Smiles, and Heart will always be true forever! So, let me own the chance if there is one in future.. I promise to treasure it as how I treasured your trust.. ♥
Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne
Another self dare of not to sms or call or msn.. (but i did msn, no reply-not counted).. Missing someone although you’ve seen that particular person recently just before is very heart sickening! I have to admit.. This is the 2nd self dare I’ve done so far.. But, I have to maintain it and control!
He’s busy I would say.. So, I understand.. He don’t like people controlling him.. I’ve made it clear enough! Just hope that his days will be fine as I don’t get updates from his busy life! Unless he is easing out again, then I have to step out too! But I don’t want it to happen so fast.. I have not prove to him that I care yet! So, please let me stay longer!
Gpttp get my self more active in the camp meeting! Not gonna sit at a corner anymore for the next meet up! =) I love dancing and my chance have arrived again! =D So happy.. But, I didn’t gave out my best today! Never mind! Will do better next meet up!
Guess I have to practice the dance and at the same time rehearse my Public Speaking Speech again!~ 14th April.. Taylor’s after Pidato.. Hope things really do work out!
Singing Your Smile- FIR as I try to remember the lyrics and dance steps.. ♥
♥ Signing off!~ Myzz Jacquelyne Anne aka J-anne.. (should use Jacquelyne Ooi often! XD)
Being a friend to you for 7 years but only being close friends few years back – recently – is quite a long and memorable to me.. I enjoyed the friendship and I hope you enjoy it too! Just that, please be considerate as people have their own life and decisions and don’t cross the line to test my patience! I’ll hold back as long as I could.. But please, control!
I can see it from your face and it tells me everything! I know you can see mine too, but I’m not a hypocrite! It comes naturally.. CONSIDERATE please.. People does mistakes and you think you didn’t? Turn back to the pages people!
放弃,不是解决问题的方法.. 理解,是解决问题的关键.. 理解或放弃是你的决定!
Appreciating what I have now.. What I’ve fought for and what I’ve sacrificed for.. Not going to ask for more, hope for more, nor dream for more.. Just want it to be in this form! Hoping things fall in place well!
只是放开这样的你并不容易, 爱你胜过自己.. ♥ Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne
I have not been that selfish anymore! I used to think twice and think trice if it really needed! But this time.. It’s quite out of control! 1st time being so damn straight forward in self expressing * blushes *.. Now dunno how to cover malu jor!~ Haiz…
I sensed problems and most probably caused by miscommunications! What ever decisions made by you I’ll respect! Just don’t mess with people’s life and boosting them with hopes and making them thought of the possibilities of chances..
Somehow, I want to talk to you.. Not as who I am to you but rank up to the title of your most trustable friend.. I think if you’re to have the chance to express yourself, you’ll be fine soon.. I just want to help.. As your most trustable friend.. Nothing else, if that’s what you prefer.. TALK to me! Anytime..
Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne
My emotions really can tell through my face! And I don’t dare to expressed it orally as I might break into tears.. Why? Because I own a soft and thin characteristic heart! And that’s why I tend to fall over and over again! Didn’t noticed? I don’t blame you..
No point turning around the table pointing fingers towards each other.. I know how you felt and I know you don’t feel how I feel.. I’m not a hypocrite.. I don’t back stab! I stab them from the front! Told you before you know?.. I guess you don’t remember.. Fine then.. Can’t blame you!
I trust you.. I think you should remember this phrase well.. But now, in this situation, just pinned down by a few words and you come tell me I’m doing wrong? What happen to the trust that I gave you? Aren’t you trust me too? It seems that you don’t by how you questioned me! Worst, it’s in a direct way! You don’t understand me.. Not blaming you..
Tears falling, heart breaking, breathe like having insufficient air.. I really wanna cry out but I can’t because no one hears me.. And you can tell me that not you can’t trust me.. But you can’t trust any girls again?! It really drags me down to the MAX!
I just want a party I can share with! That’s all.. Nites! Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne..
Not to fall back into it! But I’m too into the time we’re together once, before.. As I’ve said I appreciate it very much! So, I want to keep the relationship on going in a low profile and unlinked?! I MIND if you’re owned! But seriously, I don’t hate people for no reason.. =)
So, feel free to talk! I can’t keep things in mind and burry them it my heart.. Because it really hurts and I’ll fall sick if I do that! Being Open Minded as advised really helps a lot! And if I were to forget or not to do so, fact wouldn’t change and life must still go on.. So, please do not worry as I’ll know what to do!
Provoking problems? I don’t think so.. A clap can’t be produced with one hand.. It will only be heard loud enough if both hands were used and with effort! No matter how hard a hand tries.. Sound doesn’t produce at all.. So, if you’re not interested.. Don’t give a damn!
Keeping HIGH these few days really made me a semi-OUT person! I just found out that I laughed differently and my mom gave me a look on her face.. XD Should really continue to be in this condition! Stress free I would say! ;) And.. It’s self expression dear Ronnie! LOL
How many decades are there in a lifetime?! Enjoying as much as possible with no regrets on decisions made, keeping emotions on low-profile and just flow with situations! ♥
Not singing tonight! XP.. Nites!
Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne..
I noticed in Facebook most of my friends posts are all about appreciation, NOT only me.. I post too because I think it is very important to remind myself how uneasy it is if I do not know how to appreciate my belongings..
Appreciate relationship will be my first indicator.. Relationship isn’t easy to be build.. It takes days, weeks, months even years or decades to earn one.. One work really hard to make life simple and happy and they really do mean it as they prove that they really work hard in improving them self in their relationship..
Second is time.. Time = everything! Needed for rest, eat, sleep, walk, read, etc.. etc.. So, since we’re in Form 5 and taking SPM this year( or so ).. Appreciate your time that you have besides than those fully packed and occupied with tuition and other classes- school is in the count! DO NOT WASTE TIME!
And third or maybe last for this time is MONEY! Earning is not easy in the harsh hard working condition.. One may get fired (touch wood) anytime! There’s no need to forge out unnecessary expenses and spent on variety of WANTS.. Spending on NEEDS will be just fine..
So, START the SAVE! Less rubbish, Less pollution, Less conflicts, Less Stress, Less Pressure, Less EVERYTHING –ve and all X-tra’s goes to the +ve! =) I bet days to come will be better in many ways and let’s lead a happier and healthier life!
Singing off!~ *FIREWORKS –KATY PERRY* ~ Myzz Jacquelyne aka J-anne.. ♥
