20123006

原来如此...

I'm always you're second choice in all ways, I just don't understand why is it so? BUT, I know, feelings aren't supposed to be forced in a way. But, noticing me and not trying to stop or react towards my actions? How could you do that? I'm human, not an item with no feelings. 

原来如此...

No one wants to be left out. Not you, nor me.When you really care about someone, their mistakes never change our feelings, because the mind gets angry but the heart still cares! i just can't forget our times together, although how much hurt you have given me, I still cherish those times a lot. Even getting into quarrels everyday now is like something that holds us together. I believe, you'll see what I'm doing just for you one day.

该不该哭呢？

I don't get what you want from me. It's like you're taking advantage over my weakness most of the time. Being the loser is not something that I mind. Being there for you no matter what I'm facing, how hard is it for me to go through it, I just don't mind being there for you. If and only if you know what's sincerity, I think you can understand what I'm facing, especially being over 'chilled' by you.

真假之间， 我可以看得很清楚。 但是你还是赢家！

With you around, my decisions are affected 100% by you. You're the winner. So what if I lose? My main point here is to make sure that you're happy. That's only what I wished for. Thought I want to be treated equally back like what I provide you, so that you can do it the same to me. Somehow, life is full of ups and downs. But, from me to you, I believe in Newton's Third Law of Motion! I'm expecting the law to apply between us too!

如果我是那么重要， 你刚才早上的泪水让我感动了。 但如果你一切作的都是一直在演习， 你的演习能真的很不错！ 佩服你！

You're tears seems so real, I really heard you calling. I was weaken by it, and I find you, just to make sure you're okay. And it is like, I'm really needed and that important to you. How I wished the cry and tear you shed is from inside out of you. I believed in your words (each and every) until now, and I really hope that you're not lying to me. I had make huge decisions to just hope that everything can flow good and smoothly from my side. I'll always be there for you.

明知道， 你会这样对我， 我还是不会放弃你。 这就是我的决定和承诺。

And yes, I'll be waiting here, waiting for you to realise how hard I've worked and how much effort and risk I have incurred into this relationship of ours, I only want one thing, which is, don't abandon me anymore. I feel sick of being between wanted and unwanted and pushed around like a doll. I have feelings. But no matter what, I'll still stand by you to be there for you. That's my promise to you.

♥ 30062012 ♥

Heyya, my blog is outdated, but somehow I will update it later.. 

Yesterday was 1st day of orentation and yea! School’s back! ;P 

hehe, and today also orentation, till this friday, continuing on monday and tuesday next week. Fun fun time with new new friends, but oni know one or two la.. xD

Today’s highlight ;; >>

HaH! yes, Yeo Yann Yann ;P xD

Disappointed!

Dun assume that u can hide from tat person for long. B'coz the world
is so small. People tend to tell her one day and everything will be
over. Faith? Trust? Promises? All slipped off at once. I'm WARNING you
coz I care. Take care. Nt gonna mess with our lifes anymore. It hurts
every sec when it comes to an eye2eye contact, but it sores even more
when i saw her picture as your phone's background. And yet you can do
tis to her. Would you ever tried to change? I wonder..


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~** Myzz JacQuelyne **~

回到原点

在爱或不爱退或不退之间
你和我忽近忽远 像在兜圈
这些年多少曲折蜿蜒 我就快要分裂
当初那些画面 需要多少时间还原

没关系 我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一枪
我没关系 没关系 没关系

status : single 单身
all I want to hear is : 我们还能做个朋友吗？
what I got is : 我不要逼你。
what I need now is : time and understanding.

I’m still me!

Well, it has been too long since the last conversation. We finally talked again.. It’s my strategy to give the early wish so that you get to talk with me! =) That was indeed history last year.. haha

I remember, last year, at this time, i was busy preparing your b’day card. Wish that you can see my sincerity. But, i was expecting my art piece to be in the rubbish bin by now.. Getting to know that it’s not. I’m happy！

Another mistake? well, i am in one. a repeated one. but, i’m now trying to be someone being loved，and not waiting to be loved. Of coz, i do miss my activities that i’ve done. But it’s just a beginning. so, give it a try, i would say.

I don’t want to rush into things, though i’m now in one huge problem, that I don’t really know how to handle it. But, still, I’ve decided to hang onto it. Until I found suitable time to shake it off. I know I’m now a bad individual by doing so. But, what’s the BIG deal of getting to do something you want, and not others?

Well, he is starting classes next week, and hope everything goes well as planned. I just need more place for myself.

DESPERATE

You’re desperate huh？

I had been waiting for a year in exact and you just don’t give a damn on each and every big and small thing happening on me. You can just sit there and sms me whenever you need me, as I allow you to do so. Reach me, whenever you feel lonely, and you did. And what do I get? You left me hanging there for one whole year.. And I decided to leave that stupidity act in me on day 365.

No matter what you do, I won’t get myself back to what I’m before again, NEVER! I was stupid to lower myself that I trusted you but till now, I noticed that I had done a huge mistake. And now, I’ve found my life back.. Being loved, and in love.. And once again, a single worded sms ‘desperate’ came in?- I salute you jerk!

I believed that, “whatever is yours, it’s yours”. I had my experiment proven too.. Do not go for what’s not meant to be yours, you are just digging your own grave indirectly! And wasting energy, effort and time. It’s not worth for a jerk that doesn’t appreciate what you do!

So, FcUK off dude! Seriously! I can’t have you around as you already made my life miserable enough that I can’t bear it anymore! Stay away!