20123006

原来如此...

I'm always you're second choice in all ways, I just don't understand why is it so? BUT, I know, feelings aren't supposed to be forced in a way. But, noticing me and not trying to stop or react towards my actions? How could you do that? I'm human, not an item with no feelings. 

原来如此...

No one wants to be left out. Not you, nor me.When you really care about someone, their mistakes never change our feelings, because the mind gets angry but the heart still cares! i just can't forget our times together, although how much hurt you have given me, I still cherish those times a lot. Even getting into quarrels everyday now is like something that holds us together. I believe, you'll see what I'm doing just for you one day.

该不该哭呢？

I don't get what you want from me. It's like you're taking advantage over my weakness most of the time. Being the loser is not something that I mind. Being there for you no matter what I'm facing, how hard is it for me to go through it, I just don't mind being there for you. If and only if you know what's sincerity, I think you can understand what I'm facing, especially being over 'chilled' by you.

真假之间， 我可以看得很清楚。 但是你还是赢家！

With you around, my decisions are affected 100% by you. You're the winner. So what if I lose? My main point here is to make sure that you're happy. That's only what I wished for. Thought I want to be treated equally back like what I provide you, so that you can do it the same to me. Somehow, life is full of ups and downs. But, from me to you, I believe in Newton's Third Law of Motion! I'm expecting the law to apply between us too!

如果我是那么重要， 你刚才早上的泪水让我感动了。 但如果你一切作的都是一直在演习， 你的演习能真的很不错！ 佩服你！

You're tears seems so real, I really heard you calling. I was weaken by it, and I find you, just to make sure you're okay. And it is like, I'm really needed and that important to you. How I wished the cry and tear you shed is from inside out of you. I believed in your words (each and every) until now, and I really hope that you're not lying to me. I had make huge decisions to just hope that everything can flow good and smoothly from my side. I'll always be there for you.

明知道， 你会这样对我， 我还是不会放弃你。 这就是我的决定和承诺。

And yes, I'll be waiting here, waiting for you to realise how hard I've worked and how much effort and risk I have incurred into this relationship of ours, I only want one thing, which is, don't abandon me anymore. I feel sick of being between wanted and unwanted and pushed around like a doll. I have feelings. But no matter what, I'll still stand by you to be there for you. That's my promise to you.

♥ 30062012 ♥