014 WHY? WHY? WHY?

I want it...
But i don't want it...
I love it...
But I don't love it...
I hate it...
But i love it more than i hate it!
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SO HOW?

He's not mine...
He's ours!
He's my friends!
He's my bro's and sis's!!

I can't be selfish!
But sometimes.. I ADMIT!
i AM selfiSH!!

how? how? how?
i need an answer! It's killing me again!