It's December. Mid end December. Time flies so fast this year that I didn't have time to bother about how I feel.
To be honest, until now I'm still numb. I already let it go since the first day. But the impact on me to trust another close buddy like how I used to vanished since then. Now trying to bring back the ' I care ' me again, at least for myself.
Some really noticed the stiches behind my smiles. But I'm really greatful to have friends that listened and stayed when I need them. Feeling blessed with such assets!
Being so selfless for nearly a year opened my own way to a brand new way of life. Moving towards simplicity. But when it comes to protocols and procedures, I'm back into my perfectionist suit!
Perhaps, the now 'me' is always what I wanted, care less, contribution to the max, and least to myself..
Will be doing annual wrap up post again soon :) too many to write this year, expecially in the dhamma column!
