在爱或不爱退或不退之间
你和我忽近忽远 像在兜圈
这些年多少曲折蜿蜒 我就快要分裂
当初那些画面 需要多少时间还原
没关系 我们分了没关系
这不是你的问题
是我没那个福气
没福气却又爱上你
就算哭了没关系
这不是你的问题
痛痛快快给我一枪
我没关系 没关系 没关系
status : single 单身
all I want to hear is : 我们还能做个朋友吗？
what I got is : 我不要逼你。
what I need now is : time and understanding.
Well, it has been too long since the last conversation. We finally talked again.. It’s my strategy to give the early wish so that you get to talk with me! =) That was indeed history last year.. haha
I remember, last year, at this time, i was busy preparing your b’day card. Wish that you can see my sincerity. But, i was expecting my art piece to be in the rubbish bin by now.. Getting to know that it’s not. I’m happy！
Another mistake? well, i am in one. a repeated one. but, i’m now trying to be someone being loved，and not waiting to be loved. Of coz, i do miss my activities that i’ve done. But it’s just a beginning. so, give it a try, i would say.
I don’t want to rush into things, though i’m now in one huge problem, that I don’t really know how to handle it. But, still, I’ve decided to hang onto it. Until I found suitable time to shake it off. I know I’m now a bad individual by doing so. But, what’s the BIG deal of getting to do something you want, and not others?
Well, he is starting classes next week, and hope everything goes well as planned. I just need more place for myself.
You’re desperate huh？
I had been waiting for a year in exact and you just don’t give a damn on each and every big and small thing happening on me. You can just sit there and sms me whenever you need me, as I allow you to do so. Reach me, whenever you feel lonely, and you did. And what do I get? You left me hanging there for one whole year.. And I decided to leave that stupidity act in me on day 365.
No matter what you do, I won’t get myself back to what I’m before again, NEVER! I was stupid to lower myself that I trusted you but till now, I noticed that I had done a huge mistake. And now, I’ve found my life back.. Being loved, and in love.. And once again, a single worded sms ‘desperate’ came in?- I salute you jerk!
I believed that, “whatever is yours, it’s yours”. I had my experiment proven too.. Do not go for what’s not meant to be yours, you are just digging your own grave indirectly! And wasting energy, effort and time. It’s not worth for a jerk that doesn’t appreciate what you do!
So, FcUK off dude! Seriously! I can’t have you around as you already made my life miserable enough that I can’t bear it anymore! Stay away!